I’m Back!!

Sjoe, it’s been a long long time since I’ve been here.

My Tarzan and I are still together, for better or worse, that’s what we promised. To be honest things have not been that bad. Inside I feel happy and content and that’s good.

A family member is getting divorced. No mud slinging and you said I said stuff. It did not work. They are ending it. I think that is very mature. 1 year 11 months maybe a bit soon to just through in the towel, but realizing that the relationship is toxic and destroying both parties and therefor better to end it, that’s not a bad thing.

My Tarzan has still not made up his mind about moving north or staying. He is still struggling to come to grips with decisions made at his company of employ, but is still there. He really does not feel like the rough, unsophisticated life that awaits us out there, but I’m not sure he can cope much longer with the current situation. Time will tell. In the meantime I have started putting wheels in motion to buy our own place in our current town because we learnt lessons from our past experience. I will stay here and tie up loose ends in stead of rushing off into the unknown with him. I will continue to work for as long as I can. It will not be easy I know. I will have to take out the rubbish by myself!! I will miss him. He will not have internet and email on tap. His cellphone reception will be bad, but we think it is the right thing to do right now. But first he has to actually make a decision and put pen to paper and sign the contract. Not deciding is more unsettling for him than me. I am more of a take each day as it comes person, where as he needs to know and plan. Well honey, that is completely up to you!!!

My blogging has been very serious in the past. I think I have found my sense of humor again and hopefully I can share that here to. But for now I need to get my ass into the shower. I have not moved from the bed this morning other than made some coffee, it is damn cold!!!!

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