Vows Renewed

Everyone who reads my rants every now and again knows that I have not been very happy for a while.  My Tarzan and I “grew apart”, or so I thought.  It hurt, but I was somehow ready to continue with my life apart from him, if I had to.

Recently thought we had our anniversary.  A strange feeling for us since it has never been a big occasion.  In fact, a few times we only remembered days later.  And the occasion slipped by without any fuss or celebration. 

This year, however, it was almost as if the anniversary of the day when we promised our love to each other made both of us ponder the relationship.  We talked and talked, cried a little, talked, fought, screamed at times, cried more, laughed.  And in the end we spent a glorious, fun filled weekend together. 

We realised, I think, that both of us need to work harder on this relationship.  Both of us were wrong in the past, both hurt the other dearly with actions and words.  But most important of all we realised that we do love each other dearly.  We don’t want to loose each other and we want to fight for this relationship.

I feel so happy tonight. So content in the knowledge that I am loved and that I love dearly.  The thought that I know there is someone who will protect and care for me and for whom I will do the same calms my insides.  Makes me smile.  Gives me this feeling of utter and complete calm.

Babe, I love you more than words can say.  More than the stars in the sky.  More than the sand on the beach.  More than anything in this whole wide world.  Thank you for loving me just the way I am.  For who I am.  I once again promise to love and honour you ’till death do us part, hopefully in the far far distant future.

PS Hopefully from now on I can share with you the fun and laughter that the two of us experience together.

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