Still Counting
20 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
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It’s time for an update on the status of my Project Me.
Sadly, I have not lost as much weight as I had hoped to. Such is life, I guess.
I am waiting for that eureka! moment. The moment I get on the scale again and all of a sudden after weeks of eating well, gym classes and out right being boring I am miraculously 20 kg lighter. Ok maybe not 20, but at least 5 dammit!!!!
I have stuck to my guns and besides for the odd extra cup of coffee or two and gazillion litres of wine (yes I know wine is so wrong, but so freaking right, makes life interesting and fun) and one night (after a gazillion litres of wine) when I had a big fat cheese and ham toasted sarmie at midnight, I have been so good. Even going to gym almost every day. I have the evidence to proof that.
I keep on telling myself that:
My body is definitely changing. I can see it. Not feel it so much in my clothes as seeing it when I stare at it in all my nakedness in the privacy of my own bedroom mirror.
This is only the third week. And after 18 months of the most unhealthiness I have ever subjected this body to, surely it will take a while to adjust to healthy food and exercise?
I have lost almost 3 kg’s and they say loosing 1 kg a week is healthy, my issue is that most of that was lost within the first week. So WTF!!!!!!!
Interesting stuff I have noticed:
I am really really not hungry, ever! This eating plan allows me to eat often and lots. The way I like it. I never have to stare at someone’s plate of food and wish it was mine because I am just so freaking hungry as on any other diet ever.
Vegetarian meals seem to be my thing. It is as if my body responds well to veg (I won’t go into the details, you figure it out). WTF (again), I grew up on red meat basically. 36 years and 50 weeks of red meat as a staple food and now I realise that this body might not cope with it? Weird shit.
I called the new gym my “happy place” yesterday. WTFWTFWTFWTF!!!!! I am not a gym bunny type. Seriously. But I am really enjoying it. I can feel how I get stronger, and can do more. I vary my exercise from yoga and pilates to spinning and zumba and then doing my own thing on the circuit. I swear it really is addictive. It is not something made up by skinny bitches, parading around the gym in tiny outfits doing who know’s what.
I will take it one day at a time and keep on fighting the good fight, they do say a healthy body is the home to a healthy mind, don’t they?
Day 7
09 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
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I have finally, with the inspiration of a friend who has done it, committed to a diet.
For the last seven days, I have diligently weighed every single morsel I put into my mouth. I have resisted temptation (actually ate all the temptation before Day 1).
I have been to pilates, spinning and even zumba – a very uncoordinated, two left feet kind of zumba, but zumba it was.
Every morning, yes I know you shouldn’t, but you may as well admit you’ll do it too, every single morning I get onto the scale and freakishly I can see myself weighing less!!!!! I swear. Everysingledayless!!!
Today was the big test. Back to work. No more temptation at home. But frustration eating from a fully stocked kitchen with a selection of biscuits to die for. I swear, you have never seen anything like this. Souties, they are a different breed let me tell you. Tea and biscuits……
Oh and have I mentioned I suffer from FOMO?
Fear of Missing Out.
So scared someone will have a chocolate biscuit and I won’t get a taste. So so worried that someone will have fun without me. So pissed off when there is something going on without me!!!!!
Bottom line, I am on Day 7. Tomorrow I will report back to said friend who has lost more than 7 kg from I don’t know where, but who looks fab, on my loss.
Every gram loss is a gain from me, yeah!!! Like Oprah said in her thin days “nothing tastes as good as thin feels”. Yeah again for me, my scale and gym contract, oh and thin friends.
2011
31 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
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That time of the year. Time to reflect. Time to make resolutions.
I have had a year of reflection. Not doing that today. I have made my resolutions during the year. I know what to do. I just need to do it. I have found this fun quiz around the blogs, this shall serve as my reflection upon 2011 and my 2012 resolutions.
Break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollable and never regret anything that makes you smile – I got it from Steven Tyler’s Does the voices in my head bother you, but I am sure he got it from someone else.
What did you do that you’d never done before?
Went to a rock concert!!! Don’t get me started!! U2 was awesome, in fact the entire weekend was a decadent, booze filled haze, full of laughter, joy and love, did I mention booze haze. It was absolutely fantastic and I loved loved loved it. Hope to have many more of those.
Did you keep your New Year’s Resolutions made last year?
If I made any I cannot remember so it doesn’t count. :)
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes!!! After a it of a shock to my brother’s poor system they were pregnant for a third time!! I was convinced she would be a girl, named after me, look like me and all that since I am never going to have my own (by choice). But the universe had another plan and I have another little nephew. We have not met in person, but his gran tells me he is an absolute darling, especially after the nightmare of a sister he has. She turned out ok in the end, but man it took many prayers to stop her screaming and lots of wine to heal our ears from that noise.
Did anyone close to you die?
*Sigh*, jip, a massive loss to our group of friends. A shock I still sometimes think unreal. Still think he will phone to tell me I am a wuss for not being at the party he is at like he used to. But reality is setting in slowly. RIP T, till we meet again. Don’t worry I still drink tequila, like we used to boet.
What countries die you visit?
Sadly my passport has so much dust on it they might not allow me into any country!!!. Got to work on that.
What date will be etched in your memory?
I guessing 31 October 2011 in T’s honour. A sad, sad day. The day T’s heart attacked him and he did not wake up. Fuck. Hey, it is two months today T. Have one on us boet, we miss you.
What was your biggest achievement?
My first DIY project. Well, technically it is not completed yet, but it is kind of a work in progress, but I painted my heart out, and even if I have to say so myself, it looks absolutely fabulous.
What was your biggest failure?
I suppose my ever failing marriage. No details necessary, except I am working on that. Hard. Either way it’s gonna be sorted soon.
Did you suffer any illness or injury?
Toothache from hell!!!!!!! I thought I was dying, instead I was curled up in the fetus position for days feeling sorry for myself until the doctor’s figured out where the terrible pain came from and cleared the infection so they could fix it. Tooth was eventually fixed, all was well in my world and I am forever grateful for dentists, medical aid and serious pain killers.
What was the best thing your bought?
The paint for my DIY project, I guess. I have also changed my dress style completely since I live in the city city and not small town city these days. You had to be there to understand, lets just say I wear heels and everything these days. And may add love it.
Whose behaviour merited celebrations?
My friends carry me daily, make me laugh and tell me it is not that bad, without you guys my life will not be worth living.
My mom, she is so brave!!
Brother in Law, he turned out to be a rock in times when the family needed him.
Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
G – it should not surprise me anymore, but seriously, I still get caught off guard and the thoughtless acts and childish behaviour. Dude you are 43, grow a pair.
Where did most of your money go?
Besides paying the bills, I am taking a wild guess, Woollies? Ja, hands down Woollies 
What did you get really excited about?
U2U2U2U2, did I mention it was awesome? Well it was!
Which song will remind you of 2011?
Adele’s music – this morning I was shopping, one of her songs came on and just about the whole shop broke out in song, amazing.
Gotye – quirky, interesting, someone I would never have discovered if it was not for the stupid rugby in Nieu Zealand.
And U2!!!!!!!!!
Compared to last year are you:
Happier or Sadder – Well I am not unhappy, most days I am actually very happy, I think
Thinner or Fatter – Probably about the same, but it is time to loose the weight
Richer or Poorer – Forever poor, so over this, need to change this
What do you wish you had more of?
Money, Husband, Holiday, Sex – In no specific order
What do you wish you had less of?
Fat? – It is a work in progress
Did you fall in love in 2011?
With myself. I am learning about myself daily, and most of it I love.
Favourite TV program?
I am absolutely addicted to TV and will not choose
Do you hate anyone?
I found there is a very thin line between love and hate. Both very strong emotions, both can kill your insides bit by bit. I don’t think I HATE, I might just like some people more than others.
What was your best book?
Did not read nearly enough, but I am working on that with my new tablet.
Greatest Musical Discovery?
I rediscovered Mumford and Sons, love them!!
What did you want and get?
My needs are basic, I want for nothing. I have everything, except him. But I am letting go slowly.
Favourite Film?
Jeez for once I have actually been to the movies. Loved Breaking Dawn, saw it twice. Friends with Benefits, Water for Elephants, there must be more…..
What did you do on your birthday?
Man, it is almost been an year, I don’t remember. I think I was out with the girls, always good fun!
What one thing would have made your year immensely satisfying?
Change Jobs!! Love the people, hate the job. Odd situation since it is not terrible to go to the office, it is just terrible to work there. Luckily we have lots of fun there,
What kept you sane?
BBM, Internet Downloads, Wine, Dunhill Menthol, Hours and hours of friend theraphy.
Celebrity/Public Figure?
Taylor Whatshisface, aka Jacob, C says it’s wrong cause I could be his……… let’s call it older sister, I am not going to attack the boy, I just think if I was younger or he was older…… yummy
Who do you miss?
M – miss her so much, need to see her.
I miss Umtata, the way we were. Things have changed a lot, but it was fun while it lasted.
Best new person?
C – she’s fun, I think our friendship is only getting started
Valuable life lesson learnt?
In the end each person has to account for themselves and what they did. Everyone!
2011
23 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
2011 as far as years go has been an easy one for me. It was the first year of my life I spent most of the time living by myself. For the most part that was quite pleasant therefor my easy year. That does not mean there weren’t lows. Just simply easier.
The highlight being the trip to Cape Town with all the people I love to bits to see U2 in action. A weekend I will never forget and which will be hard to top, ever. I like to refer to it as the most fun I’ve ever had with my clothes on.
This year I also had to bury a friend. Something I certainly never considered. Burying mothers and fathers and other old people, but not friends! But it happened. His body stopped working and it was the end as simpel as that.
For the first time in my life I am a stray* for Christmas. I am very grateful to have friends around who will be sharing their families with me and I will do my best not be the Grinch, but as much fun as I can be.
Life is good and I cannot wait to start the new year with al it has to offer.
*As in without family to fight with.
Life is Life
29 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
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In general life is pretty darn good.
I have a comfortable house with underfloor heating, heated towel rails, very convenient.
I have a comfortable life. I have a laptop, blackberry, car, credit card. I have friends whom I love and family I love, most of the time.
Not often have I considered that this comfy life could come crashing down around me. Not until it did. Well I suppose not everything, but some.
Friends got divorced this year. Not so big, huge. It was like our family was torn apart. Both of them will be ok. The rest of us I am not so sure.
Friend died. My heart broke. Friend is still dead. Heart is growing back. Slowly. Life looks different without him. But I also look at life different because it is without him. Don’t sweat the small stuff and all of that.
Father in Law had a stroke. He has been in a stepup for almost a month. He is old. How are we going to fix him? We can’t really. He is old.
Mom’s gone for an op. Actually as I speak she is still in theater. It’s going to be a good few more hours they say. I am not there. Dad sounds like he is breaking down. I am scared. Mom is strong. It is pretty much routine for the experienced surgeon. But not for us. Be real careful, it is my mommy you are cutting open Mr Surgeon!!!
On the bright side, we’ve had a new addition to the family!!!
And all will be ok in the end, if it is not ok, it is not the end yet.
I know.
Only it is scary.
Colour me Shiny
08 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
When we bought the house I knew I needed to get rid of the colours on the walls, I just did not know how bad it would actually be once the old people had removed their old furniture. Almost unbelievable they sent a message that they are very sorry but the movers damaged the walls mmmmmmm I don’t think so.
Before
Typical male The Husband went out and bought paint because I said I wanted to paint, right? Yes I did, but not straight away while your parents are visiting, you are travelling to Moz and while I am settling down!
The product of The Husband’s need to buy paint.
Now apparently this is a very good paint. Good and Shiny. I don’t do shiney.
I can see myself on my walls shiny paint.
Guess where I am spending my free time these days. Hardware shops. Where bored old men go to get away from their husbands. And don’t think that anyone in those hardware shops are actually helpful. No, all they are considering is their commission, trying to get you to buy as much as possible.
Tonight I am armed with samples, never buying again without seeing it on the walls first.
Things I leartn this week
06 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
Life is short – do what you love, dance alot and enjoy the ride.
People grieve differently and go through the stages of grieving at their own pace – have respect and allow each one his own time to cope.
Whiskey coffees confuse the crap out of you body – its not sure if the alcohol needs to kick in or the caffiene should be in control.
It is possible to cry until there is a puddle on the table, you can cry more even if you thought it was not possible to cry anymore, sometimes you can pee and cry at the same time.
Flirting with a girl is apparently a weird side effect of grief and tequila. She started it.
Apparently I have grey hairs. On my head not anywhere else, just for the record. This a huge shock, especially since I thought I will be 21 forever. Guess what I will be doing on Monday? I suppose I should count my blessings my mom’s been grey since forever.
My friends are my family and are the most important people in my life. For you I kill the bull.
Tinus was needed somewhere else, we miss him, but I am sure he has the angels in stitches.
On Monday 31 Oc…
01 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
On Monday 31 October 2011 a life was taken from us far to soon. Not a dramatic incident like an accident or falling over a cliff.
No, a stupid heart attack. An embolism they call it. It went through his heart and made it stop. Just like that.
My eyes won’t stop crying, even when I tell them eniugh already. My heart feels like an embolism is stuck in it and it just won’t go through to make mine stop as well so I don’t have to feel so freakng broken anymore.
My friend I can recall many a night we laughed until the sun came out with a bottle of tequila, but I was reminded of an incident which I had forgotten about. One of the nights you chose to defend me against the world. That I will never forget.
We miss you already and this is only the start.
Make the angels laugh out load until their tummies ache like you did us. Do the Leeuloop and donate the money you collected to the angel school like you did here. Teach the angel kids to fish like you did here.
Be forever young in our hearts and give them horns big guy. Always know your spot with us is empty and you will never be forgotten.
Balance
25 Oct 2011 Leave a Comment
Mind, Body, Spirit
All supposed to be aligned and balanced for the perfect life.
Exactly how?
I read the self help guides, try to eat right, gym some, pray sometimes, love as much as I can and before I know it life catches me so of centre it’s not even funny.
I started a DIY project, for the first time in my life. It’s much harder and more work than anticipated. Husband/Boss has been around which messes with the balance, merely because my project is now moved to a lesser priority as we work 24/7. Seriously this morning instead of having wild sex we were discussing marketing strategies and HR issues.
And there I go off balance. No idea if I’m Arthur or Martha. Balance lost. Hard work this balancing act we call life.
